Everything i am

I would have never expected to be where I am today

I would have never thought it was you out of all who would meet me halfway

And the more the days pass the more I want to stay,

Because me and you belong together like burglar and pepper spray

I know I am the burglar who stole your heart

But can we make art to the sound of your farts?

Baby, I just want be at the top of your chart

But I don’t want to make corny jokes like Bart.

Enough cause im not your girl no more, im your wife

And I thank god everyday you are in my life.

You have opened my eyes and brought me down to earth

Now im constantly giving birth to the idea of how much im worth.

You make me feel worthy

And you have taught me that even alone I shouldn’t feel thirsty

You are solid and I love how you love to make sense

I fell in love with this suspense

Because you know that I don’t believe anything unless the evidence is immense.

We strive everyday to make a difference in our connection

We take affection to a neutral direction

We practice recollection

And we admit our imperfections…

I cannot ask for more from you

Im stuck to you with my crazy glue

That glue that you equally stick to, that you can’t undue

And that allows me to love you fully through.

Feeding this connection with the truth of our heart

Leaving nothing out and maybe looking a little bizarre

But it doesn’t matter because we are both stars,

We are the main characters and we do what we want.

We have no space to be affected by society

We are so close and I will work to preserve this diagnose.

Being equally loved back?

That’s the way I like it the most.

A girl needs wings

My Image of you like the memories are distant but not forgotten.

It's been a mystery who you were since i didnt get to experience it the most.

I was young, not sure who i was. The little kid you were i use to applause.

One thing i knew is that your life was so fun and i only remember your smiles that came with a probable cause.

I remember your patience i use to admire,

it was so beautiful your attitude i use to aspire.

At that time i had no clue your life was meant to expire.

I was just a little girl thrown in the burning fire.

A girl needs her dad to teach her things.

A girl needs a dad to giver her wings.

Wings to give her patience to understand men better.
You cant go into war without knowing your enemy,
you cant win a debate if you dont understand the other point of view,
you cant win a man's heart if you dont understand their basics.
And these basics should come from your own dad.
Regardless of your absence i found myself.
I seeked for who i was in my mom and had to guess who i am from you.
Girls, Better than google you have this huge talking add thats your dad.
If you cant find a good man you have to find another game plan.
Find a reason to the kind of men you attract,
Check your dad and who he was and this case might crack.
I didn't get to do that cause mines died of a heart attack.
But here i am stating these facts.
At some point you have no choice but to look within you
seek for the truth you must subdue
to find that imprint in your heart you must undo

to learn the number one lessons on self-value that's overdue.

In loving memory of my Dad

Jhon Carlos Florez

"Flo-Wing" 1WORD Feat. Flower. poetry back and fourth

ATTENTION : This is a collaboration, my first at that. It's been on my mind for a while and I decided to unite with someone who has a unique view towards poetry. I believe we all have our own authentic thoughts but when it comes down to it were one in the same. To all my poets much love, keep flowing! This is life!... This right here... is what it's like when minds COLLIDE! Enjoy!








-Title : Flo-Wing


[1WorD(Me-Roger) & [Flower]






Verse 1 - [1WrD]


I'm at a drought for words
The chords are dead silent
Soon to be revived by Poem Lords
They keep my flow vibrant
1... 2... and...
It's my heart letting out that stream
An incredible high full of expression
With my eyes open to a world full of steam
I'm here to clear up this gloomy session
Move the clouds to the side for an open view
I'm on queue to show you your dreams
Everything isn't what it seems
So come trip with me up to mars
I'll cure those awful scars
The one's you call memories
Replace' em with Flowing medley's
Stay under my "wing"s we'll continue on
To a beautiful place, we'll "flow" on and on
It is my regrets to say it's time to wake up
I was talking in my sleep, must of been the tea
Filled the cup too high I'm an overflowed cup
In this reality I realized dreams are crazy
But now I truly have something to show you love
Here I am to decipher what I see in my minds cove




Verse 2 - [Flower]


I find myself in your same dream spectrum
Inhabitant of a place where my V.I.P. stands for VIVO INEVITABLEMENTE PIENSO.
This beauty capable of blinding my flow
but for bestow I would have to be below.
and I might be above, but I can never reach the top,
My reality collides with my dreams leaving me cogitative.
Too rational to be like the average, who need glue to stick to the true.
but who am I to blame you for missing the glue of curiosity?
I got 1WORD deciphering what he sees inside his soul,
well I'm here to tell you you're not alone.
Grinding on the idea of apprehending life on your own.
trying to reach deep understanding of the unknown.
Gifted ones are meant to suffer.
We learned from the scars of hell and back.
But with our expression we attack,
killing the misery of with a smack.
There's really nothing we lack when it comes to being a lord.
Poetry we adore, and understanding I implore.
& with this combination I smitten.
I never ask for more,
because I got all I need in store.




Verse 3 - [1WrD]


All it is, is the chemical's reacting in my brain
They continue Flowing even when my pen drops
I've gone insane in my own world full of stains
Black lettering; the alphabet is bold, their growing crops
I water my words and make sentences out of them
You never seen a plant flourish the way I've grown
Coming up, here to show you a brand new perspective
Taking poetry to another level, look at what I've sewn
Pay attention I'm going to make my work massive
I'm turning your blank paper into your future thoughts
I'm ahead of time got yous caught in knots
It's going to take awhile to catch up to me
But no worries I'll be delivering daily
My columns will be a must read day to day
Like metro's horoscope's on a Monday
I'm out of tone on this verse, hope no one minds
But I'm definitely here to shine, cK unwinds
With her lyrical tornado set to enforce a new style
Were in it for the long run we've been far from a mile
It's time we reached out to a publisher or a record label
We deserve more on the table; more than a fable.....
Now rewind back into time to understand the last line I send
Damn much love to all my people, tE this is the end




Verse 4 (Flower)


We sure are in it for the long run mate
I don't chase money I chase dream gates.
Trying to make it through the day that's growing like the plant that nourishes me under the rain.
It could be snow or just my tornado words in vein.
But I'm still standing tall against pain.
The struggle for the forgotten value of the true word
asking individuals what they see, but its all a blur.
Can't see through the visible?
looking like this real shits invisible?
killed by your thought that's divisible.
Too much information at once,
its making your brain come undone.
I free my hand and my mind to fly away into my imagination
I come face to face with aberrations,
but my foundation is the wildest compensation.
and there's full relation between your street education,
and your final destination.
You are what you became from the bits and pieces of your failures.
don't try to to tell me who what when, if you didn't live it,
learn from the hole you fell in, don't try to fit in.
Or your knowledge going to end up splitting,
between the truth and the lie that hides behind your skin that's thinning.

I have a vision

My vision more than that is a dream. I call it vision because i imagine it more than i dream it. A dream seems mediocre, a vision applies to the law of attraction that some day in the future my planet will be this way. I have a vision that some day in the future my brothers and sisters will realize and acknowledge that our race is inter-dependent. We must first learn to be completly self-reliant in every emotional, physical and economical related rea. We must simply learn to let go and not hold grudges against people even if you were the victim. REMEMBER FOR EVERY ABUSER THERE IS A VICTIM. YOU NEED BOTH ROLES FOR THE SITUATION. If people dont hurt us how will we learn? the point is to cut this problem from the root. If we were considerate with each others feelings we wouldnt have to teach each other lessons. Then we want to play god in peoples life and thats not how we were created. We were created as individual gods with enough power to move mountains. Im glad most people think im crazy because the power we hold is unimaginable. But although we are individually each there’s one thing you cant cover up. The power of our words in other peoples lives. The law of attraction, in other words; PRAYING. Praying is real. whether is to god for yourself, simply hoping for the best or just the intense thought when you wish the worse upon somebody. Like when a mother lives her life constantly telling her son that he will be a failure. Thats the power of the mothers word, probably one of the most dangerous ones if the hope is negative. This is how regardless of our individuality we are still responsible for one another. We always exchange energy with people and how we feel inside has to do with the type of enegy we give or get. From a show of appreciation for the being you are or an envious vibe. The type of energy you give is reflected in how you handle the bad energy you get. That defines your relations with others. Do you let life turn you into monster or do you accept life’s law of the brightside of suffering? Your life, your choice and your attitutde.

Flower Never quits

I never quit a game. My fellow initial teammate quit once he realized it was him and me against four. I decided to stick to the game after being down 0-80 in a game of domination. This is what happend next...

Self-explanatory

"You superstitious? throw salt over your shoulders. Make a wish for the day cuz Like somebody got a doll of me Stickin' needles in my arteries But I can't feel it. Sometimes it's like 'pardon me, but I got a real big spirit' I'm fearless.... I'm fearless. Don't you try and grab hold of my soul. It's like a military soldier since seven years old. I held real dead bodies in my arms. Felt their body turn cold, oh Why we born in the first place If this is how we gotta go?" -Nas

These hats are set to hold me off this summer

Hippie Love <3

Say NO to drugs....

Say YES to Ganja

Short clips exposing my defense Core/Hardcore

Twitter: Carolina Claymore

@Killtheflower

PSN: Fawkin_flower

A Journey Through my eyes

Bonding Plank

"From the time i was slick and grabbed your boobie 
To the first time you played call of duty 
It was all love.
What ever happend, to our long love?
101509 sounded like a song love
Overwhelmed me like a hit from a bong love
Thought i had power but your touch was so strong love"

HEARTS 10-15-09 HEARTS

Some Quotes

Sensitivity is not a sign of weakness. How we handle it is. Being sensitive means you can picture yourself in your enemys shoes, therefore you can beat them or cry because you simply understand why the problem even happend. When we love them, we go for emotional tears or emotional madness when we are being selfish because we feel it is not our fault. We must learn to use our sensitivity to solve, not to destroy.



It is nice to accept people the way they are when judgement usually seems to come attatched to satisfaction. But that's why people NEVER CHANGE because we excuse them. We are used to being judged for humor, not for help. That's why we set ourselves to accept ass holes, evil bitches and fucked up family members. The key is to learn to positively judge with sympathy not with satisfaction.



If you dont learn how to laugh at the beautiful things in life, permanently laughing at the bad things will rot you inside


There is a very thin line in between a positive constructive judgement and a false accusation based on a personal opinion

My Deeper Language

Titled as weird i was looked at like a symbol of attention. Never cared, always felt different compared to this social convention. In where the contention is held by the thread of the trend and i never cared to defend
all these people that pretend. Because i been always myself top, botttom and inside out. They tried to change me but to feeling different i was devout. All these feelings made a difference in my heart. I knew i was looking at life differently from the start. It scared me a bit when people didnt understand the way i did, but then i understood it has to do with the way i live. I speak a deeper language, it has noting to do with grammar and reading, Its about feelings and i feel with my words the feeding of my soul. Theres more to a definition than the ear can grasp, there is always a purpose ondemand. The body speaks louder than the brain can understand and if you know this you are already in command. I just try to be ahead of the game in this messed up world, trying to read peoples words and straighten these confusing curls. Because culture has everyone all twisted. A bunch of mimics, drunk on gimmicks, hard working just tryng to live it.

MY LIFE

55-10 Nuketwon *a lil watch and show

Twitter: Carolina Claymore

@KilltheFlower

Tips to become Flower to the max Power on Black Ops Multiplayer

1. When the game first begins (depending on your level of confidence)run straight forward across the map. You are bound to run into someone right away.

2. If its a building run up to the second floor towards a window to look outside. Then jump out if its safe. If it's an opened space throw a grenade or semtex as hard as you can straight forward.

3. When the game has progressed (or even to start off) there's a couple of ways to navigate the map. If you are not too confrontational just follow the edge of the map. I would say preferably to the right.

4. Turning around the corner has to be very precise. Do not run into it unless you are 100% sure there is nobody there. You can crouch down and slowly walk around the corner but once you have full view keep your vision straight just in case you have to shoot somebody that is positioned far. If its somebody infront it will be easier to shoot forward.

5. There is so many ways to use a claymore. It is almost artistic to me lol. If you are trying to get into a building and this person is chilling right in the entrance you can put a claymore right outside the doorway. Most likely he will come close enough to the doorway to activate the claymore, otherwise you can do that while you go around. You can also use it while in a short battle. Run away from someone into a building and put it right in the entrance. You can run around something so this person could follow you in a circle and also put a claymore in his path. Another place where you can put a claymore is halfway through a staircase. Perfect for somebody to walk up or down. If it's a staircase that turns place the claymore right after or before the corner depending if the person is inside or outside.

6. If it's a large map i do navigate always to the right or opposite way everyone is going. I go into rooms mainly to look and navigate out the window. You can also do this if somebody is following you to try and go around. I feel it can be a disadvantage if you don't react fast but otherwise exiting a building through the windows is the way to go.

7. Don't shoot unless you are sure you are going to hurt otherwise follow them it can be easier to get them that way. If they see you and come after you and there's a place you can go in, i usually do what i call the "fakey". Run in so they could waste their clip a little and maybe give up the shooting, then run back out because if you run away instead of shooting right away they might think you didn't see them so they aren't expecting the counter-attack.

8. Use all the objects around you. If there's anything that may look like a cover use it ! Never give up a battle if you are almost dying take cover. Never give up at all. There is always time during a CoD game to catch up. I will come back with some more tips when i think of more.

Twitter: Carolina Claymore

@Killtheflower

My brother in Law EGGY

The Rapture at the Coll House

The Angel and the Devil